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28 June 2008 @ 08:37 am
Wooot!!

This weekend is summer conference at the Raddisson South.
It's so amazing so far... everyone's absolutely excited. We're all having a great time listening to our leaders.
It's so humbling to listen to their stories about their difficulties and their encouragement for us.
They make us believe in ourselves.
I know that I can achieve more than I am now... I just need to find that heart. There are people waiting for me out there...
 
 
Current Music: DBSK - Doushite Kimi wo Suki ni Natte Shimattan Darou
 
 
xxxfemme
21 February 2006 @ 02:12 pm
Your Birthdate: May 22

You tend to be understated and under appreciated.
You have a hidden force to do amazing things, doing them your own way.
People may see you as strange and shy, but they know little.
Your unconventional ways have more power than they (and even you) know.

Your strength: Standing up for what you know is true

Your weakness: You tend to be picky and rigid

Your power color: Silver

Your power symbol: Square

Your power month: April
 
 
Current Music: 1tym ft. perry & lexy - ok
 
 
xxxfemme
25 January 2006 @ 12:13 am

I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
It's the last thing that I wanna hear

Chorus:
But if your heart's not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got something to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard

I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you

Chorus:
If your hearts not in it, for real
Please dont try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it

How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind
There's nothing I can do
To stop from losing you
I can't make you change your mind
If your heart's not in it

Chorus:
If your hearts not in it, for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If the loves already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the world, for you
Anything you ask of me, I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your hearts not in it

(Repeat til fade)
 
 
Current Mood: content
Current Music: westlife - if your heart's not in it
 
 
xxxfemme
18 January 2006 @ 11:10 am

The University of Blogging

Presents to
xxxfemme

An Honorary
Bachelor of
Babbling

Majoring in
Self Deprication
Signed
Dr. GoQuiz.com
®

Username:


Blogging Degree
From Go-Quiz.com
 
 
Current Music: 3 lights - nagareboshi he (search for your love)
 
 
xxxfemme
18 January 2006 @ 11:08 am
How to make a xxxfemme
Ingredients:

5 parts jealousy

5 parts arrogance

5 parts ego
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add sadness to taste! Do not overindulge!
 
 
Current Music: mariah carey - through the rain
 
 
xxxfemme
18 January 2006 @ 01:05 am

Look
We Gotta Talk
Dang! I know, I know
It's just some things
I gotta get off my chest
Alright
Yeah
Oh ooh oh ooh oh ooh oh

[VERSE 1]
Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

[HOOK]
How do you let it go?
When you
You just don't know?
What's on
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand
Cause I kno...

[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
Oh
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

[VERSE 2]
But now your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Though I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

[HOOK]
How do you let it go?
When you
You just don't know?
What's on
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?

[CHORUS]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
Oh
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

[BRIDGE]
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh [x2]
Do you hear me crying?
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
There's never a right time...

[CHORUS] [x2]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need
Oh
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say (echos then fades)
 
 
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: chris brown - say goodbye
 
 
xxxfemme
05 December 2005 @ 11:17 pm
Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

Last week I bought porn for [info]_coquettish (10 points). In September I bought porn for [info]alchephiliac (-10 points). In July I signed my organ donor card (28 points). Last month [info]faded_icons and I robbed a bank (-50 points). Last Monday I ruled Canada as a cruel and heartless dictator (-700 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-722 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking!

Sincerely,
xxxfemme

Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username:
 
 
xxxfemme
18 October 2005 @ 06:40 pm
(Don't forget about us)
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No, baby, no, baby, no, baby, no
Don't, baby, don't, baby, don't let it go
My baby boy

Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby

Now every time I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby, I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about

Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

Oh, they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it

There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact that you can't deny
So baby we just can't let the fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about

Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

And if she's got your head all messed up now
That's the trickery
She'll wanna have like you know how this lovin' used to be
I bet she can't do like me; she'll never be MC

Baby, don't you, don't you forget about us

Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes; you still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes; you still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

Don't, baby, don't, baby, don't let it go
No, baby, no, baby, no, baby, no
Don't, baby, don't, baby, don't let it go

When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us
 
 
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: mariah carey - don't forget about us
 
 
xxxfemme
03 October 2005 @ 11:06 pm
My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
xxxfemme goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as police officer.
_coquettish gives you 16 mauve cherry-flavoured pieces of taffy.
alchephiliac tricks you! You lose 9 pieces of candy!
fadeastride tricks you! You get a rock.
faded_icons gives you 15 light orange watermelon-flavoured wafers.
fuffy_frog tricks you! You lose 8 pieces of candy!
mizugazipan tricks you! You lose 8 pieces of candy!
rogueiconlj gives you 7 softly glowing root beer-flavoured gummy bats.
unicornhime gives you 4 softly glowing root beer-flavoured gummy bats.
ushitora_icons tricks you! You get a used tissue.
xxxfemme ends up with 17 pieces of candy, a rock, and a used tissue.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.
 
 
Current Mood: content
Current Music: se7en - passion
 
 
xxxfemme
02 October 2005 @ 10:03 pm
just getting used to wakin' up every day
'n' not seeing your face
i just began to stop setting your place
and i stopped longin' for your warm embrace
and it was God that made me able
to finally sleep at night
though you're not by my side
finally i don't hardly cry

see right when i start letting go
somebody wants to let me know
can they take your place
no they can't fill your space - no

hook:
i tried to move on but you're not gone
cuz in my heart you still live on
see now i know why
i'll never love another for the rest of my life and why
now that your gone i'm holdin' on
cuz deep in my heart i wanna move on
and now i know why
i'll never love another for the rest of my life

i finally put your clothes away
you know the ones you wore the day
that you were takin' away from me
i just began to stop wearin' my ring
and i finally stopped playin' our song
when i realized i was dancin' alone and
finally God gave me strength
to go on and breathe again

see right when i start letting go
somebody wants to let me know
can they take your place
no they can't fill your space - no

hook:
i tried to move on but you're not gone
cuz in my heart you still live on
so now i know why
i'll never love another for the rest of my life and why
and now that your gone
i'm holdin' on
cuz deep in my heart i wanna move on
and now i know why
i'll never love another for the rest of my life

bridge:
God knows it's time for me to move on
i wanna feel alive again
i wanna be in love again
and no matter how hard i try
i can't erase you from my mind
and i gotta find somebody new
but i just can't get over you

hook x2

doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo
nooooo huuuuuuuuuuuuuu
 
 
Current Music: toya - moving on
 
 
xxxfemme
12 September 2005 @ 11:46 pm
Step into my world

Step into my world
Uh-huh, yeah, yeah
Whooaaaa
Uh-huh, yeah, yeah
Whooaaaa

Like a moth
To a flame, you know you're drawn to me
I know you
Better than you know yourself, baby
Why do you
Try to resist what you want, honey
I want you
To give me what I need, listen closely

I need you to
Hold on me
I need you to
Kiss on me
Feel your body
Next to me
I want you to
I need you to
Want you to give
Into me
Want all of you
Everything
Ecstasy (will)
I will bring
You everything

[Chorus:]
Step into my world
Where there's countless things to see
Endless possibilities
Let me take you to a place where desires flow deep
See an odyssey of dreams
And the best of fantasies
All this for your eyes only
Ooh, step into my world

Close your eyes
And let your feelings now take over
It's alright
I'm intoxicating you though you're sober
You inside
The thought alone is so overbearing
Boy tonight
You just follow my lead from here and

I need you to
Hold on me
I need you to
Kiss on me
Feel your body
Next to me
I want you to
I need you to
Want you to give
Into me
Want all of you
Everything
Ecstasy (will)
I will bring
You everything

Step into my world
Where there's countless things to see
Endless possibilities
Let me take you to a place where desires flow deep
See an odyssey of dreams
And the best of fantasies
All this for your eyes only
Ooh, step into my world

Where there's no reality
Time itself means nothing
It's so hypnotizing
It brings you to a :
See how my words, they get to ya
Creates the lip that's haunting ya
Yes, the sea, hold on to ya
Ooh, welcome to my world

My world

Where desires flow deep

Fantasies

Oooh, step into my world
Where there's countless things to see
Endless possibilities (oooh)
Let me take you to a place where desires flow deep
See an odyssey of dreams (odyssey of dreams)
And the best of fantasies
All this for your eyes only
Ooh, step into my world

Uh-huh
Whoooa
Uh-huh
Whoooa
 
 
Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: jennifer lopez - step into my world
 
 
xxxfemme
21 August 2005 @ 11:13 am
I am flower named xxxfemme !
I consist of my friends!
Are you flower too?
 
 
xxxfemme
19 August 2005 @ 09:36 pm
another 8am - 8pm
dhhheng..
so tired.
sleep deprived.
cant wait for 2morrow night.. hehe
so excited.
i work 11am - 9pm at soular!
stupid dry lips pissing me offf..
godd


You are everything

Today I saw somebody
Who looked just like you
He walked like you do
I thought it was you

As he turned the corner
I called out your name
I felt so ashamed
Cause it wasn't you
Wasn't you

You are everything (you.... are everything)
And everything is you
Oh, you are everything
And everything is you
Oh you are everything
And everything is you

Oh baby

How can I forget
When each face that I see?
Brings back memories
Of being with you
Oh darling I just can't go on

Living life as I do
Comparing each girl with you
Knowing they just won't do
They're not you
No, no, baby

You are everything (ooooh.. you are everything)
And everything is you
Oh, you are everything (aaaah.. you are everything)
And everything is you
Oh you are everything
And everything is you

For you're everything to me
Don't you know you're everything to me
You're everything
Everything to me
 
 
Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: gareth gates & rachel stevens - you are everything
 
 
xxxfemme
12 August 2005 @ 11:33 pm

I Hope You Dance
~lee ann womack

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty-handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance, I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances, but they're worth takin'
Lovin' might be a mistake, but it's worth makin'
Don't let some hell-bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin' out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance, I hope you dance
I hope you dance, I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion, always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years
And wonder, where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

Dance, I hope you dance
I hope you dance, I hope you dance
I hope you dance, I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along
Tell me who wants to look back on their years
And wonder where those years have gone)
 
 
Current Music: lee ann womack - i hope you dance
 
 
xxxfemme
12 August 2005 @ 02:33 am
PURGATORY
Raw score: 33%
Purgatorial creature, neither pure nor dirty: I feel for you. Until I learned to accept my own darker instincts, I was once just like you.

You've been known to indulge your devilish urges, but you can also reject them forcefully, and perhaps you feel pulled in two directions at once. Only time will tell which way you go. As people get older they rarely remain in this half-good/half-naughty category. Some settle down and ascend to married and decent bliss. Some follow a more carnal destiny.

In the battle between sexual heaven and hell, you stand in no-man's-land. Good and evil wait on either side. The big question is: which side do you face, and which side do you keep in your rear?




My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:


free online dating free online dating
You scored higher than 16% on hellish
Link: The Sexual HELL Test written by jason_bateman on Ok Cupid
 
 
xxxfemme
12 August 2005 @ 02:16 am
quiz  
Uncorrupted
You are 82% pure!




My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:


free online dating free online dating
You scored higher than 55% on purity
Link: The 100 Point Sexual Purity Test written by ocicat on Ok Cupid
 
 
xxxfemme
30 May 2005 @ 12:10 am
01) Copy and paste this into your journal: <*font color="yourusername"> <*b>yourusername<*/b>
02) Eliminate the asterisks.
03) Replace "yourusername" with your user name.
04) See what colour you are.


xxxfemme
hmmmm interesting!
 
 
xxxfemme
30 May 2005 @ 12:09 am
Blaze
I've got a ruby red desire

I've got to hear the red bird sing...

Let's see... your personality reminds me of the...

...fiery Ruby, the red variety of corundum, or its little sister, the Garnet that inspires love, passion and sensuality. Your colour is the luscious red or glaring pink.

Interpretation:

Out of the seven chakras, the Ground Chakra, which is associated with the element of fire and represents our basic desires and driving force, seems to be predominant in you. Though you will certainly be fun to be around, this may result in a tendency to make decisions impulsively or feel restless and agitated.

You can balance it by wearing an Aquamarine or a Turquoise; they both inspire balance, peace and serenity.

A Tarot references concerning your predominant element:

If you are a young lass or lad and still unmarried your card is the Page of Wands. Young women, especially married ones, identify with the Queen of Wands, also known as the Queen of Clubs. If you are a young, unmarried man, you are the Knight of Wands, and married or “mature” males are identified with the King of Wands, commonly known as the King of Clubs. Ladies and gentlemen, here is your strong-willed man you’ve been looking for.

These are the results you will get if you score highly on...

None of the four elements: Balance Wind: Gust Fire: Blaze Water: River Earth: Valley Wind & Fire: Thunder Wind & Water: Clouds Wind & Earth: Canyon Fire & Earth: Lava Fire & Water: Tornado Water & Earth: Trees Wind, Fire & Earth: Storm Wind, Fire & Water: Stars Wind, Water & Earth: Forest Fire, Water & Earth: Avalanche All four elements: Harmony





Link: The Elemental Balance Test written by Nitsuki on Ok Cupid
 
 
xxxfemme
21 May 2005 @ 12:07 pm
crazeee.. time to go ready for another grad.
ugggh
:S
so much work!
 
 
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: ray J ft. fat joe - keep sweatin'
 
 
xxxfemme
10 May 2005 @ 11:30 pm


Your Love Style is Eros









For you, love is all about the passion!

And chances are, you're currently in love.

You have a strong physical response to love...

And you are great at committing

(As long as the person makes your toes curl!)


 
 
Current Mood: dizzzy
Current Music: xscape - one of those love songs